Have you ever feel that there is 2 of you in your head? The one that is always positive and the one that is negative. The negative 'me' inside of me always want to lead me down the dark road. I know that I have to wake up. Be strong again. Be driven again. This is not me. I am not the weak, unmotivated and sad person I am. I know this is just a phase that I am going through. I wake myself up from this dark slumber.
I found myself again. I get myself closer to God. I talk to my family members about what I'm going through. I told them that the darkness seems to follow me around. They are the one who gives me all the encouragement. Tell me that I can find myself back. Telling me that God will alawys be there for me.
I take it as this is just a phase that i am going through. I am getting better and I am happier and cheerful as normal. I secretly hope that this is not some kind of depression that I am going through.
Stay strong, keep your mental health healthy. Talk to people when you need help.